damn dude...

where have the weeks gone? i cannot believe that time has flown by so fast and that my maternity leave ends next week! eeps. if i hadn't taken extra leave, i'd actually have to be back at work next week!!! can't get my head around that!

brought meredith to the office today since we were in the building.. was nice catching up briefly with some of my colleagues (and knowing that i was missed.. *ahem ahem*). was fun showing off meredith too! hee hee. i DO miss the office, and part of me would like to go back to work cos i feel so out of touch from the "real" world. but then again, i look at meredith, and i look at my days now, and i wonder what it'd be like if i had to leave her for the day and only see her for a couple hours each night. for all the complaining i do, it really is amazing to see her grow right in front of my eyes.

plus, i know that the earlier i go back to work, the less likely i am to keep up with breastfeeding. my target is a minimum of 6mths (doctor-ordered) and i think that's doable since i only go back in january. even then, i'm wondering how i'm going to squeeze in pumping sessions given my erratic schedule at work with meetings etc.

so yes, after all the gripey posts on my blog... here's one to say that i really am lucky to have the fortune to stay at home with meredith for that extra bit of time... and that i have to count my blessings. for all my complaining about how fussy and demanding she is, i really am blessed that she's a healthy baby. i just need to remember that when she's screaming her head off, tis all. amen.