doc's appt

so today's my 5th doc's appt. (or so i think, if i'm counting correctly)
i love my doc's appts cos it's always a little reassurance that the stowaway is doing just fine in mah bel-lay. but the hours leading up to it always make me anxious in case something isn't right. (yes, me the eternal pessimist - half empty vs half full).

this week has been one helluva emotional rollercoaster. work has been hell, my self-esteem is taking a beating and my hormones are raging like a house on fire. i'm sure the latter has something to do with the first two... but eh. my priorities have constantly been challenged this whole week.. and today's the day i finally have to do something about it. i told the hubby i'd make up my mind and not change it. i just wish it was an easier thing to do. it's just that no matter what decision i make, i feel like i'm letting someone down. and that sucks cos i'm lil miss "i hate conflict and i want the whole world to be full of happy shiny people".

so yeah... i'm just hoping everything goes well this afternoon and that my decision doesn't ruffle too many feathers whichever way the tea leaves fall. sigh.