deadly concoction

2 parts pregnancy hormones + 1 part exam nerves + 1 part separation anxiety (getting more by the day) + 1 part work stress + 1 part general unhappiness with the state of the world (yes, i'm very drama-mama) = a very upset, depressed and frustrated me.

i wonder if this is what's considered pre-natal blues. i used to think my PMS was bad but this is way worse. usually i know i'm illogical and i can work my way out of it cos i know it'll only last a couple of days. but now, i'm so caught up in my own head-funk that i can't talk myself out of it. no matter how illogical it really is, it all seems PERFECTLY justified to me. every little thing adds up and becomes this huge, unsurmountable obstacle where the whole world is against me. i'm self-centered and wallowing in my self-pity. i'm sheer joy to be around right now. no one can do anything right by me. not even me. sigh.

my first exam paper is tomorrow. i didn't study AT ALL today. ok, i did, a bit, if you consider going through the Act one more time to make sure i didn't miss out anything as "studying". it's crunch time tomorrow. time to see if my pregnant brain can retain any of the 60 or so sections of the patents act that i've tried to stuff in it. wish me luck.

bleah.